Things have been going really well lately – although I am exceptionally tired however, I am pretty sure I can attribute that to a culmination of things like starting school again, working out every day, not getting enough sleep, and it being close to that time of the month for me. But hopefully this too shall pass and I will acclimate to my new schedule. Aside from this, I do feel really good. I am glad to back in school and starting my practicum rotation for my clinical hours. I am probably one of the few people in the world who feels like this, but I feel like I am actually more put together and just thrive more in general when my life is very busy.
Well, in my last post I had talked about my personal trainer and how I was already seeing the differences. Well, I had such a crazy NSV the other day and I felt so ridiculously proud of myself. As you’ve read before, I’ve been seening a personal trainer (PT) for almost 3 months now – and WOW! I can see so many differences it’s crazy! I’ve even begun to develop what I like to call ‘baby muscles’ in my biceps and triceps and my legs are starting to look significantly firmer. But now for the NSV! So the other day we were training and my trainer said “Give me 12 push-ups” of course, my first reaction was to tell him he was crazy and that I was not going to be able to do 12 push-ups. However, given his job, he forced me to get on my knees and do them (they were girl push ups). Well, guess what?!?! I didn’t only do one push up, but I did the complete 12 in perfect form without breaking a sweat! I have never in my life been able to do this. Not only was my trainer impressed with me, but I was also very impressed with myself. I just couldn’t believe it. I had been a little upset that the scale’s movement had started to slow down and that I wasn’t seeing many change – however, being able to do this shows me that even though I am not losing as quickly as I would like, that I am in fact gaining muscle (which weighs more than fat) and thus could be attributed to the slow weight loss.
Aside from that, I am also starting to feel more confident. I find myself wanting to be in more pictures and actually wanting to get dressed and do my make-up. Honestly, in the past couple of months prior to surgery I was just so uncomfortable with myself that I did not want to go out anywhere and I definitely did not want to be included in pictures. I felt terrible. Now, the terrible feeling has subsided and I am starting to feel great. It also helps that my weightloss is not becoming apparent and more and more people are starting to notice. It is not uncommong for people at school to come up and tell me how great I look and that I need to keep it up! That’s always a wonderful feeling.
Also, something I want to share with you guys: I know most of you either use or have heard of my fitness pal (MFP). I know most people LOVE it but I couldn’t stand it. I thought it was rather difficult to use and just didn’t have all of the clarity that I wanted it to have. Well! Low and behold, I found this app called mynetdiary (mynetdiary.com) and I cannot tell you just how much I love it. It is so clear and easy to use and it has really helped me keep track of what I have been eating since starting school. So in case anyone else out there is like me and doesn’t like MFP, check this out.
Oh! And major news today! I am at 200.2! I AM SO CLOSE TO WONDERLAND!!!! Its incredible. I can’t wait to see that 199 on the scale!!